我开始害怕了。

D:

had a senior-high prep briefing for assembly today.
they gave us this paper listing out the requirements for choosing certain topics,
like >3.2 then can have 4 H2 subjects.
<3.2... = 3H2 and 1H1.

fine call me paranoid but im afraid i cant get 3.2!
):
i wanna join the medical faculty for NUS
which is practically impossible...
NUS is one of the 3 unis in sg
medical is probably one of the most sought-after courses ):
and my tuition teacher told me that even students with perfect score like 4.0GPA get rejected
what more a student who cant even reach 3.6 to take up the "Big Challenge" of 4H2 and 1H1.
):

and now HCL O level seems so impt
it's on your A level cert and you mustmustmustmustmust get a D7 or above if you dont wanna endure another year of horrible chinese.
and it's not just normal HCL but it's CLL, chinese language & literature D:
IF i go off-topic for zuowen THAT'S IT.

isn't it scary?
now comes a point where you have to start making your own decisions by yourself, asking your heart what you really want in life.
what do you want to follow for (possibly) the rest of your life.
now comes a point where you have to really WAKE UP from the dreamland and WORK HARD cos THIS WILL AFFECT YOUR ENTIRE FUTURE.
screw this year up and you might not get to learn the subjects you wanna learn.
screw this up and your entire ambition might just go poof
POOF
i know a lot of ppl who dont have a fixed ambition yet.
but you just have to force yourself to find one now... ):
and we are mere 16 year olds.
bah.
actually im not i can't even watch NC16 movies yet. zzz.
at least i know i wanna be a doctor :)
an allergist or a GP.
long history of wanted-ambitions but this stuck the longest, so.

i've always wanted to take bio and chem.
heck about maths, i aced in primary school but im barely struggling past this year's topics.
hopefully starting tuition next week can pull up and make me get a C for both maths to take H2... ):
physics (which will probably pop tmr) isnt something im that interested in.
much less history.
and im NEVER gonna take something which i dont have interest in again,
gonna do something to prevent a repetition of history -.-
history being history as in the subject.
i really loved geog like 无法形容
too bad din score well enough to take.

i wanna pull up my socks
so i cant possibly keep up with now -.-
ive gotta give up either
1) blogging
or
2) facebooking (meaning Pet Society actually).

im gonna give up facebooking after easter is over (:
sorry Playfish that's one less customer for you.
i wanna excel more in my grades than dressing up my pet.
though i must admit there's something addictive about that game o.O

goal for this year EOYs: 3.47 + 0.2 = 3.6
A+ for chem.
A+ for bio.
A for physics.
B for maths 1 and 2 (arghhhhhhhhhhhhhh)
A for history.
B for LA
B for Chinese (though i seriously doubt it's possible)

i mustmustmustmustmust at least accomplish half of that.
jiayou me and everyone else!

God bless us all.
(L)